that a particular person and i just started out on the wrong footing. this strain of heightened wariness and unpleasantness just emerges unsuspectingly, and it is rather apparent to others, even to myself, and i can't seem to control myself properly. i sensed that i was being bitchy, and felt that i was in the right to do so. which is the part that irks me and 'ruffles my feathers'. i wonder if it's just me and my reaction to this person, that perhaps i'm not being fair and objective and seeing the good work and effort he is doing for the greater good. in my biased eyes and pompous attitude i keep thinking that i am right instead. but what is it that ruffles the feathers??
one reason, is that i feel that he is not practicing what he preaches. he seems to be different ppl in different roles and occasions, and hence he is inconsistent and thus does not win my trust. i just hope that i am mistaken and wrong and have misunderstood him. what irked me today was a small thing, like, suggesting to use "How Great is Our God" for thanksgiving hymn for mass tmr. i said that it was not liturgically right, and my other friends asked if i was questioning his sense of liturgy. and i said yes! >.< i had to argue with myself on the walk home, to see why i was worked up over such a small thing. perhaps i am conservative then, but i came to the conclusion that a priest once commented to me, that we are often so particular about the non-essentials, and yet forget what really are the essentials. in this case, whether we sing that song or not is a non-essential. so should i be arguing over it? it's really, such a small thing but it is so telling of bigger things like fundamental understanding of liturgical music. o.m.g.
how?? i just hope that he wakes up tmr and forgets about it. or wish the Holy Spirit would suddenly intervene in his dreams or something. hmmm. grit my teeth and bear with it.
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